The end of March was the beginning of some confusing symptoms including fatigue, confusion and a whole bunch of other shit. I honestly felt like I was losing my mind, but that it was also causing my body to physically stop functioning. However, Paris was booked and it’s trip that not only set the tone for the rest of April, it genuinely opened my eyes to a variety of possibilities, both creatively but also in terms of my life in general.

David Wrench is someone who’s been a huge sound/music influence on me as an artist and I didn’t even realise it. Having the chance to see him mix and explain his ethos behind his work and his decisions was ground breaking (not an over reaction). Being in Paris for the first time was also beautiful.

Getting to see MIKE by chance after missing his Brum show felt like God smiling down on me, because genuinely what were the odds (shout out to Milo for getting us in). I’ve always wanted to catch a show in Paris, but this was a dream come true. Both MIKE and Jadasea came through with passion, and MIKE kept reminding us: “All this is just Hip Hop, it’s just bars and beats.” - I’m paraphrasing heavily, but I remember him saying it like an affirmation; when you’re real and you love what you do + you respect the craft, that’s all you need. People will feel you. Tell me an artist that doesn’t need to be reminded of that on a daily basis. Craft is core, gimmick is unnecessary.

Anyway, to swiftly conclude, April was cool because I experienced lots of cool shit, but I physically felt like shit. But that’s ok because nothing (including physical health) is ever linear. April taught me to let the dissonance guide me towards a resolution. Was I living sustainably or was my body just responding to shitty food choices and unrealistic expectations about what I’m supposed to be achieving in my mid twenties? Either way life didn’t end, it actually got really exciting.